To break up or to NOT break up

So a while back I had a small bad experience with my doctor's office staff. I called in (and I never call the Dr.) when I wasn't feeling well at all and I knew it wasn't normal and I got the brush off and the answer well a stomach bug has been going around. So I was bugged but just let it go until the next time I had to call in. I was so annoyed that I got my sis to talk to her Rheumatologist and got the name of a different Dr. so I could get a second opinion.

So over the past 2 1/2 months as I have been waiting for my appointment I have been thinking about if I should "break up" with my current doctor and go to this new one. Also I was stressing about what to say to my current doctor without feeling stupid or bad for not going to him any longer.

Well, I saw this different doctor today and he seemed great and was also nervous about some of the medication I have been put on. I have been very nervous and bummed that I was put on such a harsh medication which causes horrible horrible birth defects especially since I specifically told my doctor we wanted to think about trying maybe next summer time or. Come to find out this harsh medication stays in my system for up to 2 years after I stop taking it. There is a different medication that will pull this harsher drug out of my system but from what this new doctor said is not too pleasant and that I wouldn't really like being on it (i.e at least 3 weeks of diarrhea).. fan-freakin-tastic.

So, at this point I have no idea what is going on with me, my body, or my doctors...but I do know that my old doctor is getting the BOOT...sayonara buddy!